wtf the feeling is jus sometimes so unbearable... i'm feeling so fed up n no mood nw ... its jus cos of somethings... y things cant jus turn out the way i hope they would be y must always let me know n c things i don like n don wish to c... if there's anything y cant u jus tell me... i really don wan to say everything out lor cos something might happen like wat i said last time... really donno wat to say also i'm nt blind ok... chat wif wei y'day he told me alot of things which are veri true but somethings is nt say forget then can forget de they already left a scar in my heart le... somethings also already have a veri impt place in my heart le nt jus say let go then can let go so easily le... i donno where's my limit mayb many pp will think i'm stupid but its jus so hard to let go... after all the things i did don they have any effect ma??? still nt enuf ma??? sometimes i jus wish some1 can knock some sense into me cos in the past i'm nt like tat de.. my frens will know in the past hw i'm like but i can say i've changed nt much but a little bit at least for some1 i loved so much... if i could turn back the time i'll turn it back to 05/04/06 n i'll reverse the mistake i made then mayb all this things might nt be happening nw.. i don wan wat cindy say to come true its hard to accept the fact.... when i'm feeling sad who knows its nt i don wan to tell my buddies jus tat i donno hw to say it out... wei said: "gals need to be cared for, concerned for n need to be loved but don guys need tat too" gals sometimes jus don understand hw guys r feeling n they keep saying we don understand them ... is'nt it the same thing for u all... there's jus some hope left in me...

tk care my bros n sis...heard bout kappo grandma pass away hope he's ok... its been a long time since i saw him too.. tk care bro.. c ya soon... 1 more week to kiat's wedding shall c every1 there ba.. it'll be a happy nitez for us...

no 1 can take her position in my heart

i think its been many weeks since i finally update... sorry... always no time la plus a bit lazy to type....so many things happen who can understand hw i feel its nt i don wan to say out but jus tat i think tat saying out will makes things worse only i jus cant find the rite person to tell on the outside i may look happy relax like nth like tat everyday work but inside i'm feeling f**king terrible veri xin ku... almost everyday drink at work... but when i get hme its still the same feeling... y must this happen i never do anything wrong nw leh or is this wat pp call retribution??? i donno mayb ba... argh!!! wish i could disappear rite nw then no more probs liao... i jus hope time will really change everyting please let everything change... life is jus so sianz... somethings u think i donno i never c but jus happen tat i know n i saw it myself... u know hw i feel at tat point of time?? u will never know.... please i'm nt stupid ok don treat me like a fool...
tats all i feel like saying... don come ask me anything i nt refering to any1...

1 week pass so fast today is my first off day.. as usual sch then went down raffles to wait for bbie but still so early when i reach so decide to walk walk lor then suddenly saw 1 flower shop like kappo work place so went to take a look haha it really is also donno hw i walk till there 1... so long never c him liao lo... wait for bbie off work n him to off work also lor scarly so many pp come buy flower when he goin off work sia c him like so busy like tat... then back to yishun lor watch movie wif bbie quite a nice movie la then back hme le... nw we live jus next block to each other le haha so gd but think nt much time to meet also la i study whe work then at nite i work also gonno miss her lots le... hopefully can find some time for her n my frens too... chalet coming le this wkend i'll get to c all of them... after finish work i'll go down de... currently this job i think can la quite a relax job but i don think the pub suits any 1 of our age cos is really all uncle come 1 everyday i work listen hokkien song only lor once in a while gt chinese nia sianz... c can tahan hw long this job haha...

tired le goin slp soon good nites all my frens...

wat a stress semester things are goin so fast in sch everyday jus count count count n count the figures only... until i so blur which is which liao... cannot skip sch liao if nt really donno hw to catch up liao everyday also tired in sch 1 but ok la still can understand hw to do la nt bad rite haha...

i jus found myself a new job thanx to guowei n kerlin... received a call from them say the pub kerlin is wking nw need bartender although no ex but also can she say.. so went for interview yday n they said ok start on wed lor actually is today de... rest 1 more day first... work full time leh if nt no money liao 1 week only off 1 time... but working hrs still ok la 6-1 only after sch go work straight liao.. its Amrise music lounge at geylang between lorong 13 & 15....scare tat really nt much time to acc my bbie liao n meet up wif frens... but sure gt chance de la next wk chalet liao ma...

so sianz now nth to do bored sia... eye infection somemore so sway... i so so so miss her feel like seeing her.... love u bbie...

take care everyone...

tired

finally i update my blog liao exactly 1 meek never update liao cos no time use com also... start sch liao ma then after sch meet my bbie so never update "oops sorry"..scare i gt nt enuf time for her also cos nw both of us also will be quite busy but think she'll understand.. this sem cannot play play liao if nt really going to fail liao... promised her i will nt pon lessons if can.. sometimes is bo bian la hor.. will try nt to... tat day i sat in the class alone like no frens like tat haha... also good la can concentrate ma... happening week this week leh mon shin 8, wed zouk, thurs shin 8 then MU, fri d'zess pub then MU again sat rush... wah kao cannot tahan like tat sia like wan die liao must rest liao only rest tue n sunday sia must relax liao la... pls don jio me go zouk again go there is nt enjoy at all is go there to crowd wif pp nia no space walk no space sit no space dance lucky still gt place stand.. pp walk down the stairs use push de leh so scary sia haha... boring place sia if nt so many pp stil ok la... at her pub gt stupid pp wan sabo me sia lucky in the end everything was ok all thanx to emily n charx than for ur help i appreciate it alot... if nt i think fri will be a veri sad day for me... haiz... wat more can i say... must becareful liao

jus read kappo blog looks like gt alot of meaning... mayb sometimes we really will neglect some of our frens... really there are some of them i long time never c them also le... ya there shld be a balance btw both.. frenship is veri impt also...also together so many years le.. must cherish this frenship also jus like r/s...

time for dinner le then is billard time wif xiong n onn... wish me good luck...

haha she's back i'm so so happy rite now... cant wait to c her tmr... feel like going find her rite now but still got to wait till tmr... nth can describe the happiness i have now .... so happy till cant slp liao la haha...

sch starts in 2 days time c u then all my ite frens... take care...

went for billard wif xiong onn n wenjun yday clour ball win but number lose again expected but nt too much lucky... after tat all gt their own programme n i'm left alone so headed down to devils to find kappo n rudy.. at first nt much pp but after tat wah the jam like the JB custom jam like tat rite nt rudy stand also no space nt even to mention dancing... think their bottle of chivas can last quite long haha... nw also gt ah gua go devils liao haha veri rich de hor think chanel sponser them de haha everything chanel leh any1 interested??? can become rich leh haha then tk NR1 go hme wat a long journey n the bus driver also like donno hw to drive like tat lucky never vomit ar haha 3 of us cannot tahan liao halfway...

another good start today receive her call again from hk use public phone de so only lasted 1 min 54 s haha but it was enuf le she's coming back tonight le think will reach at midnite ba must wk up early tmr morning to go meet her le so happy finally i can c her le... jus went to cut my tail away cos i promised her i'll cut when she come back... although bu she de but for her its worth it la nw hair a bit short liao... sunday is family day so stay at hme for dinner ba...

its chalet time again... receive a msg from kang its from may 19 - 21... time for fun again.. chalet really makes our frenship bond better jus like wat kappo say... tats the time everybody can relax from work n studies n army life...

have a good sunday everyone...

2 more days to sch reopen

went occ to work yday but seems liek slacking there cos the job wun start also de so play nillard wif jy then wait to get the money only although nt alot but jus nice for me to eat supper n buy cig... after work play billard again then siao liao no place to go liao last alternative is to go hme but go hme sianz lei mahjong also sianz...jy call his fren so end up play mahjong again sianz... in the end lose money expected haha... play till the couple quarrel haha so funny... i wanna laugh but cannot... so xiao qi cannot tahan pp say u 1 meh he's jus joking ma... nvm la tas their personal prob i shld'nt say too much sorry...

its a sat but still at hme slack think also no place to go de la think our mr xiong is back from taiwan liao... shld be acc ping mei ba 3 weeks he never c her le... hope today will be a good day too...

jus 1 last day to endure n i'll c her le time also pass quite fast la... missing her everyday...

interesting pic.. no offence to anyone haha















last day liao ENDURE!!!!
love my baby

really a veri good start to a fri haha... good news is tat the progress package money is out so no worries for the time being le haha... even more good news is tat i chatting with my bbie in msn eben if is jus for a while it jus made my day better... woken up by her fren to ask me log in thanx charx for the call... goin work at occ later extra cash le even though nt much.... can play billard le... don worry jy i treat u eat dinner la later...

F5 n ACE u all can take a look at the F5 acc i uploaded a new edited photo of us.. spent 3 hrs doin tat photo sia since i cant slp cos i'm missing her everyday since she left... annie it doesnt matter hw u have change but u are still part of this big family ok don need to feel weird meeting us de ok we also never feel wierd ma so jus be normal ok... now waiting for my baby to online again so i can tok to her b 4 goin out to meet jy for dinner... take care everyone n have a nice day...


1 more day n i'll c her le
u are always in my heart bbie